Death Note

This is my new background. For those who don't know its from an anime called deathnote about someone who finds a book that can kill anyone who's name is written in it. It takes place in japan as most anime tends to and it involves a lot of deep though. The boy who finds the book in very smart and a good person but having all that power changes him and he tries to change the world by punishing criminals. The police seem unable to catch him but a private detective is doing much better then them at finding out who is behind the deaths of all the criminals.
Its been a while since i watched this anime so i think ill start it again. I hope you like it if you decide to watch it too.

Fresh Background

If only there were candles that could really do that.

from bad to worse

well my 12hour workday yesterday ended up being worse than i expected. on the way there my car decided to die. i think it was the tranny. so anyway, i had to get it towed and ended up being late to work. i am still waiting for the final word on what is wrong from my car so i will know that its proablty to expensice to fix and i just wont have a car but since it was still in the shop i had to break out my bike to get to work. i havnt really used it in a few years so it is not in the best of shape and neither am i for biking but its all i had. if i was working in my normal store biking would have been just fine but since i was borrow at a different store all this week i ended up haveing to bike 15 miles to work and 15 miles back. i have never biked so much in my life and now my body is killing me. all i want to do is laydown. oh, one more note on how lucky i am this week, my bike also got a flat just before i finished getting home. not sure is i should count that as good luck it didnt happen when i was 15 miles away from home or bad luck that i dont car or even my bike to get around in now.

cant sleep

i couldn't get to sleep yesterday and i think ill be up till late again tonight. that wouldn't normally be a problem but tomorrow i have 12 hours of work so ill just have to see how that goes. maybe a monster or two will help me get through the day.

Back

I haven't been on i quite a long time but that's all in the past now. I feel like getting a fresh start with my life and i'm going to stick with it this time. For a start i'm going to be blogging everyday, exercising and and just changing my life for the better in anyway i can think of. A little down my list of things to do is get a better job but i'll leave that for another day. Iv already organized my computer and have a fresh background to share with anyone who cares to look. Have a great day world and ill try and do the same.

background

and this weeks background is now out. enjoy

blood

have you ever donated blood before? well if you have like i have you know that they will keep calling you after asking for more. well i finaly went in again and now im running a pint low. i wonder if its a bad thing to replace that blood with an energy drink but i guess i will know soon enough

im back

well i had been having some problems with my computer and though i really didnt want to i reformated it. its still not back up to 100% but its a lot better. i just hope this thing dosnt die before i can get a new laptop or desktop. anyway heres my new background.

background change

This one is a little one the simple side but i like it anyway

change of plans

well i lifes been keeping me busy so i havent really got to stick to that new background a day plan and im not getting bored of my background that fast so i think ill change it to once a week or so. Anyway, here is my new background. Hope you like it

background

well iv been a bit bored with the background on my computer but that happens very quickly. i think ill see if i can find a good one to change it to every day and ill even share them with anyone who cares to take a look on here. i hope everyone finds at least one of mine the like.

back to running

well yesterday i finally went for a good run. i didnt mean to go as far as i did but my run ended up being about 8.5 miles. that really is a bit to much for a first day back after taking months off from serious running so i feel ok about takeing today off from running. i just need to be sure to run tomorrow.

I have just about a month before this race i want to run in and i hope i left myself enough time to get back into shape. speaking of my race i should really register for it. wish me luck

a game

well i havent played a good tower defence game in a while but i can seem to find any good new ones so im just playing one i found a while ago. If you have never played gemcraft and you like tower defence games you will love this one but expect to spend a lot of time playing it.

sugesstions?

Well i find my self in need of some new animes to watch. I cant find any more eps for the one i was watching and i just find myself rewatching some old animes. heres some of the animes iv already watched and liked a lot;

Outlaw Star, Claymore, Blood+, Cowboy Bebop, Deathnote, Devil May Cry, Elfen Lied, Full Metal Alchemist, Trigun, Rurouni Kenshin, and Yu Yu Hakusho

These are not all the ones i seen, just a bunch of the ones i could think of. If you have any sugestions for what i should watch next just let me know, Thanks everyone

dream

So the other night i had i kinda strange dream. well i guess any dream i actually remember end up being strange in someway or another. Anyway, the dream starts out with me and a few of my friends hanging out on top of some dunes above the beach. For some reason my one friend has her laptop with her i'm trying to put some roms on it for her but i cant find them on the flash drive i'm using. (iv heard that any writing you see in dreams is backwards or unreadable or something but everything on the laptop seemed fine in this dream.) as i'm doing this some surfers come up from the beach saying the waves are getting to big and its dangerous. right after them a wave washes up almost to the top of the dunes where we are. me and my friends are all thrilled and cant wait to get into the water, i though the laptop in a bad and put it on a hill just a bit high than the last wave was and start down the dunes to the beach. For some reason i find my self going down the dunes like a waterside but have to stop because the path is blocked a ways down the dunes. i end up running down the rest of the was to the beach and the waves are huge. then i wake up.
i thought it was an odd dream and just though i would share. i doubt it means anything but i may try interpreting it one day.

fake smiles

Fake Smiles

The fall of night starts it again
Finally out looking for a friend
Some are found but are they true
They don’t even speak to you
Strange and familiar faces all around
Pointless talk is the only sound
People leave and then you follow
Hopes for the night have become so hollow
Back in the crowd, yet all alone
Inside you ace and moan
Drifting for the crowds edge
Inside your head you’re at a ledge
You see a smile and reflect one back
Emotion is what yours dose lack
That smile wasn’t meant for you
Another mistake but that you already knew
Empty smiles hurt so much
In your pocket your fist does clutch
Still pretending and wearing that smile
Inside you hurt and your faces lie feels vial
On the sidelines your fake smile shows
Will it catch someone eye, who really knows?
Alone again you walk away
A wasted smile, a wasted day

busy

Iv been a little to busy with work to post the past day or two but i should have some time to put something new up later. I have another early day at work tomorrow. i hope it goes better that today did. For now i just need sleep because i didn't get any at all last night.

who to be

who to be

I am not who I want to be

I do not feel like me



I‘ve been molded by society

and the rules are controlling me

I’ve not been who I want to be

I wish I knew what I want for me



I want more determination

but I wonder if within the duration

of the rest of the time I have left

will I be me or will death take my life by theft



I may change my life one day

and maybe then I will know what to say

Dark Thoughts

Dark Thoughts

Dark thoughts fill my head
I fear they will stay till I am dead
What they are I cannot say
For if I do I’ll be locked away

My greatest fear is losing control
Pain and suffering to others, the toll
For now I try to keep myself restrain
Struggling within just to stay a bit sane

I think back now, when did it all start?
Thoughts and dreams of evil and crimson art
Has black always been the color of my heart?
As a child so kind then inside I fell apart

Innocent and young only wanting to please
For the whole world I gave my best
But in the end a happy life was a cruel tease
Betrayed and abandoned by one, soon all the rest

How will this all end?
Is there hope for me?
Can my mind and heart mend?
To end this what is the key?

FFXIII

Well i finally beat Final Fantasy 13 and it only took me 56 hours. Ha ha a good waste of my time only because i beat my friend to the end. He had a head state because i didn't even have a system that could play it till a few weeks after he got the game but right now his system is broken and waiting for to get fixed so i guess its even.

All and all it was an OK game, i didn't like it as much as i liked some of the older FF games. I didn't really care to much for any of the main characters and there was little free will in the game. For the most part you only had one way to go with no options. just keep walking down the path with the story line and no free exploring allowed, at least untill you got to go back to grand pulse but even that was limited. with any luck the next one will be better, not counting 14 or any other of the online ones. I'm not really a mmorpg type of guy. They have no real goals or ends. it takes forever to level and to actualy get anywhere and im not really into needing groups of ppl to fight with me to actualy kill anything.

Time for some zombie killing. Left4Dead!